Musing An Year Went By.

Yes, an year-end post. I have no excuses on why I haven’t been writing. But I am now, so just let me. Funny, this time last year, I was so excited to do a year-end post. I guess that is one aspect of my life that has changed in this past year.

Yes I still feel inspired, pretty much every day. Not just about writing but about nearly hundred other things that I wish I could do just about then and there. And then reality hits me, something’s pulling me back, so hard that no matter how much I try, it

just doesn’t let go. The crazy part is I have no idea what that something is. Maybe figuring out that something is what I should be looking forward to, in this coming year. But then, I realize, I don’t want to know. I think I have come to terms with this force to the extent that I am now addicted to it and not in a good way. I somehow enjoy it, the restriction of being opposed, of not being able to do something you want. Why? I again have no idea. Probably I have been so free for so long that now there exist a sense of infatuation to this obsession of being controlled and it’s sinful. It’s thwarting my flight.

2012 will arrive soon enough. I haven’t thought of what 2011 did to me or what 2012 might but one noticeable thing

that has revealed itself in this past year is my stance on relationships, primarily friendship. It’s a weird world this and even weirder are its people. We join hands in our needs and no matter how much you might disagree; we are all a bunch of hypocrites who roam around fearlessly until someone starts judging us. And by judging I mean in a good way. But we ignore, swear, neglect and move on. The ones who still persist become our friends. I miss precisely 5 people very dearly today. I don’t take names here and four of them don’t even know I have a blog but they know how I am or how I feel better than most. So here’s to friendship and those countless moments of sheer bliss that you have spent with friends. May this New Year bring in your life what true friends do.

I haven’t shared so much for quite some time and I have no idea why I did today but somehow it felt nice. Every time I write something close to me here, my love for this blog increases manifold. Of the things I have done for myself, this has been one of the most precious ones.
Chao, see you all next year. -.-